GAH // 27 Aug 2008

I'm so sorry, GAH I SUCK I just suck at blogging I can never think of anything to say and even when I think I have something to say I still don't update! I'm just being a lazy bugger at the moment.

Soooo what's happened? I guess the big one's first. I got my GCSE results and let me tell you now I'm a genius. Okay so I'm not, but I'm so freaking happy I got 5As - I thought I'd get what 3? But nooo 5! Stupid educational system can eat it's heart out. The thing I feel reaaally good about is I know my family were expecting me to do worse. Maybe not my immediate family, and if they did it was for me they were worried and thinking it, but my aunt's and uncles on my dad's side dear god. A bunch of gossips they are. They were all so worried about it and they were talking to me a week before I got my results like 'are you worried?' and I was like 'uuuh I don't even know when I get them' their kid's are total neurotics, seriously...

And I've decided where I'm going I'm gonna learn how to design video games. I finally figured you've gotta go grab life or it'll run away so instead of doing something boring which I don't enjoy just to have some qualifications I'm going to go learn something useful and also something I love. Before I thought it'd all be a dream, but the idea that one day I could be making video games is a really exciting one. I'm happy I'm going against the norm and doing something different. Once again to see the looks on my family's faces (once again my mum and dad are supportive of my decision, but other's don't understand me) when I say I'm doing a BTEC they put on this smile like 'well whatever suits you'. Heh since I've got my GCSE results now I hope they know that I'm not doing it just because I can't do anything else. Besides I'm gonna do a maths A Level on the side as a back up.

This video thing is still freaking me out, I haven't done ANYTHING yet really apart from write some stuff down. It's all fine in theory, but I HATE talking about myself or anything to do with me so every time I have the time to do something I sorta go procrastinate with Resident Evil. (I've finished the 4th game twice now, not good...)

Well I'd say that's enough for now eh? I'm sorry if I've been neglecting this place a bit, I'm not really sure why I guess I've just been being lazy. And lazyness seems to make me more lazy, I'm almost glad the holidays are over soon I'm so BORED. But I'm also scared XD have to make sure I'm accepted by the people in my class lol Did I mention the boy to girl ratio is 3/1? Speaking of boys... I swear this guy said 'you're fit' in my ear the other day and it scared the hell out of me. I was asking for it I guess 'coz I was wearing a corset type thing, but I immediatly put my jacket back on afterwards... Then again it could all be in my head 'coz my sister didn't hear it... I don't think I'm THAT insane though. I don't know why people say things to me, is there something about me which makes people do this? It's not the first time it's happened some guy at the Expo last year stroked my face T_T

Okay now that's all I have to say I think I go enroll at Amersham tomorrow so maybe I'll tell you about it? Or you'll probably hear about my first day of school :D Can't wait to finally wear my own clothes (in the UK we have uniforms until 6th form/college).

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I have an irrational fear... // 04 Aug 2008

...Of telephones. I've spent the past... fifteen minutes rocking in a chair going 'need to redial, phone the woman back, scary phoooones!' and chewing a pen to death but we'll get onto that a bit later.

I've been back from Mallorca for... 2 days I guess, we got back on Saturday and I have never been so happy to see it rain! I did enjoy most of my time there, it's nice for it to be pleasantly warm as long as you're sitting in the shade by a pool with a good book. Most of the time I was though there was a gap in the day when for around an hour there was no shade. I'm not a person who likes heat, I burn to a crisp so I was wearing factor 50 sun cream and keeping out of the sun. (I didn't get burnt really, go me!) However I did get bitten. 5 mosquito bites on the last day, three on my arms two on my face . The other minor annoyance were these people we normally go on holiday with. Two families, one is nice, the other... has a brutish oaf for a father and a whore for a daughter. It was embarrasing watching her trying to flirt with all the spanish boys. And listening to talk about boys, shoes and more boys for hours in the evening? I'd go nuts if I had to listen to all that on a regular basis. So it was a nice holiday all in all with some downsides. I'm glad to be back with my technology and my nice safe British climate.

As for the telephone thing I was speaking about. I entered this channel 4 mediabox competition ages ago and I've been picked as one of the 10 finalists. AAH!! I have to go up to London and make a video... they're giving me £500 to make this thing and just >_< I'm gonna screw it up big time I can tell. When I finally got up the courage to call the woman back she wasn't there so now I have to call her back again. It's kinda cool, but I have to be in front of the camera as well and that's the scary part. My idea was to talk about 'School-refusers' the category I fit into even though I didn't actively refuse school which is something I wanted to clear up in the video. But GAH I have to phone a load of my tutors and see if I can find people who will talk to me. SCARY!!

Well that's all I have to say for now. I have a couple of FLs which need layouts and all. So once I get back into the swing of things the updates will start again. Provided I don't have to spend the rest of August on this video. Oh and my GCSE results are less than a month away >_<

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